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I've been experimenting with trying to make chilled noizes.
The logic being that if I get super hyped when I play a bouncy/techno
set, what happens if I play a good chilled set? Do I get super chilled?
Turns out YES I do get a sort of *deep chill* going on which is awesome.
It's a feeling like just feeling really *good* through and through, but there's no exitement or hype,
it's good but still perfectly chill and without the excess energy I'd normally associate with feeling
that good (e.g. after riding bikes, or playing a set - feel great but there's accompanying "activity".
Very strange but immensely cool :)
Whilst I love bouncy music, I really struggle to chill and manage stress,
anxiety, and whatnot, even with 'assistance'.
But I've found music to be super powerful for me re inducing all these mental states, so I'm
experimenting further to learn more about and develop the idea with a hope of building the sort of
sounds/environments which will help my brain re-adjust as quickly as possible.
The "chilled sounds" are not so much "music" as "soundscapes", and are about
juxtaposing various sounds and noises and sitting with them, in them, for a while to
see what sort of feelings they trigger (in me)...deep chill would be ideal.
There is a lot of repetition and "not much happening"
but that's literally the point. meditation with sound. Getting lost in the static and noise
and repetition helps bring about
the trance-like state needed to start emptying the mind.
The idea for making these sort of tunes came from how one particular chillout mix on youtube which UI found
extremely helpful for breaking out of my grief cycles at the end of 2019. What I was trying to do
was exist in a place of pure peace and joy for a period of time (e.g. an hour or two) to counteract
the prolonged periods of grief I'd been experiening, still long after the death of my friend.
In these sessions, whilst I was trying to "reprogram" my brain by effectively just writing lots
of "joy" (aka 0xFF) to all the memory addresses of my brain, and repeatedly going "travelling",
through the repetition (repetitive reinforcement) i accidentally seem to have turned that mix into
something of an "emotional flush" trigger. Whilst it's an amazing mix, the repeated exposure in that "blissful"
and "dreamy" setting and that I was using it to "process" during those sessions, means it now seems to
act like something of an "emotional flush".
Anyway, point is, music is powerful stuff, for me the chill effect is getting on for being stronger and cleaner than anything I could
achieve with herbs or medication. The right sounds and "medication" in the right setting, for the right number
of exposures can yield some really interesting and quite dramatic improvements in overall state of mind and wellbeing (for me)..
Ultimately I'd like to try and bring some sort of semi-pre-prepared visuals into the mix to compound the effect,
or even some live generated/reactic stuff, but I'm a way off that level of organisation yet ;)
Although.. saying that, a bit like this:
Files in the download folder (unprocessed, make of them what you will)
PLEASE NOTE: these are mostly experimental sessions so might be testing
an idea or a way of doing something, they're not finished productions
so yeah theremight be soem levels issues or it might stop and start while
I muck around with the config here and there.